i'm greedy
i'm foolish
i'm selfish
i'm egoistic
i'm immatured
i'm flicker-minded
i'm unrealiable
i'm lazy
i'm reckless[heck care]

HOW CAN I EVEN BE MARIA?

which agency would even want to employ a maid like this.
they probably put a chop that says

"WE WILL SEND YOU A REPLY..when i die"

lots of things happened today.
need pen my thoughts down.
need to get what i want clear.
its just that i dunno what to write.
my mind is in a swirl.
keeps turning and turning.

there's just one word to descibe mi NOW.
the word is IDIOT.
why?
becos IDIOT=FOOLISH.
plus a big and a fat in front.
and a me behind.
the word is-->
big fat IDIOT me.

so many things has happen.
yet i from day 1.
i've never change.
what i see now is all a lie.
even though i keep telling myself i will.
at the end of the day.
its all just a chant.
like the monks hitting that round round thing.
its just simply does not get into my head.

My Studies
My CCAs
My Church
My Music

are all in a bundle of wool and twine.
1 wrong move.
they knot each other.
just because of this thing called
"NO TIME MANAGEMENT"
and
"SELF-DISCIPLINE"

at the end of the day.
its just gets more tangled.
thanks for reading if you do.
just dont-
1)get tangled in my web
2)get tangled and get lost in space

7 days to xmas
13dayd to 2006[oh no!]
15days to school reopen!!!